Just wanted to add a quick update, Oh I did feel so rubbish last week, my little girl leaving left a big void and for some reason I kept thinking of how I would have smoked to alleviate that emptiness.  I had a lot of thoughts like this, I thought how easy it would be to buy a packet on the way to work, nip up to the local shop and come home seeing as no one is there and puff away - I had these thoughts but at no time did I ever come close to carrying out those acts.  I went back to my list of reasons why I so desperately wanted to stop in the first place, I don't want to die but more importantly I don't want to live like I was doing back then when I kept thinking, I'll stop soon, as if one day it will be easy to just give it up, just like that, that day would not have come I had to get on with it and I am so glad I have.

One thing which really helped me and I want to say again I am well into this quit and didn't actually consider smoking, but reading of long term quits where someone has had just one and they are hooked again really spelled out the fact that this is an addiction and I must never ever take a puff, its amazing that some of the stories are people who have been quit for years and years and yet still become hooked again quick as a flash.  I also read the new members posts and remembered how far I have come and how much help and support I have had from people here.  I will not lose this, I will not go back to smoking and those hideous days of sneaking, stinking and feel wretched.

So I still miss my daughter, and feel a bit emotional at times but doing OK.  Doc, Brian enjoy your children, they grow up so very fast and before you know it are flying the nest!! 

Lucie
xx

I have been free for 3 Months, 3 Weeks, 2 Days, 13 hours and 30 minutes (115 days). I have saved £554.70 by not smoking 1,848 cigarettes.