thank you Joel, great videos and so pertinent!

it was a good day today, but had one creepy episode while walking in the city. I had a brief image of myself buying a pack, just like that out of nowhere. I went back home right away because I was scared. I guess I was prepared for the little voice whispering "just one" but not this. it's also not clear to me why it happened, since I never bought cigs outside, always ordered online. didn't think it could be a trigger.

I was frustrated but I take this as an opportunity to understand more my addiction. I'm very surprised/overwhelmed by all this, especially how it seems to affect everything I do (the amplitude of addiction) and how to overcome the fancy scenarios that my mind creates... I was considering avoiding going out unless I have a specific plan. but I will think more about it tomorrow after a good night sleep and fresh perspective.

Hani