to all who might read... I wish you all a great new year and that your dearest wishes come true. and many many thanks to everyone on this forum for bringing invaluable insights, knowledge, support, the "veterans" as well as "beginners" (like myself), you're an everyday inspiration to me!

over a month in my journey, all is well and I'm happy about it. I notice more "blank" in my life, I mean before, addiction was dictating all routines, so before the day started I kind of knew what it'd be like (everything would have to be designed around smoking, and the only important thing was to smoke). now, I sometimes sense my brain asking "now what, a reward?" to which I always reply "now nothing". it's almost becoming amusing. and then the "blank" part begins. it's as if I open my to-do list for the day, but the page is all blank. I was a bit depressed at first for a week, feeling this big nothingness/emptiness, but then I realized I can write anything I want in this blank page. I kind of like this "unknown feature" more and more, like everyday a little adventure...

I have smoked for more than 30 years. I don't remember what it was like to be a "never-have-smoked-person". but it doesn't matter because I feel now more freedom each day to change the things I want in my head and in my life (thanks to this site which is a haven of knowledge). I think I wouldn't have made it so far and so well without this community.

Hanie

Edited 1 time by hanie Jan 8 16 9:43 PM.