Hi Irena, what a wonderful adventure and learning experience you are beginning. I can certainly understand your apprehension about facing so much so fast but here is another way to look at it. You are beginning a new life, a clean smoke-free life full of adventures of travel, seeing new country, learning new cultures, meeting new people and making some new friends. Every time I face something new and am a little scared I just remind myself that I'am not the first person in the world to have this experience and if others can do it and survive.........well here I go. You are going to be just fine, just remember nic is just extra baggage, certainly not anyone you would care to tag along with you on your new adventure. He is sooooooo awful so bid him farewell and embrace this new opportunity. Your quit friend @ 5m, 3w, 3d, and counting. Antonia