Hello Cruella:
Funny you should have posed your introduction to us this way. I just brought up a post this morning addressesing this very issue. Check it out: The Easy Way to Quit Smoking.
I see you joined in at Freedom on January 3. I suspect you were interested in quitting then but if you think about it, you have been smoking as of just a few days ago. You were very likely looking for an easy or better time to quit all this time. Waiting for either of these states cost many smokers their lives. This may not be easy, but it is possible and given time and patience will get better. Read through the Quit Library here, at www.whyquit.com and reinforce your resolve that as tough as this may be, it is worth the effort. Remember, you are fighting for your health and your life.
If you ahve specific questions let us know. We'll help however we can.
Hang in there and let us know what we can do to help.
Joel