Tex,
You came here seeking support which is an indication that you would rather seek help then to use nicotine again. This is an example of how your time spent here previous is paying off - You are smarter than your addiction even if you are feeling weaker. Take a step back and recognize that you are not looking to return to smoking full time - What you are looking for is relief from these thoughts, this discomfort you are experiencing. But the relief you seek is not in a cigarette in chewing tobacco or nicotine by any delivery method. The relief you seek comes from learning to deal with what you are feeling without using nicotine. What is it that you really need? It ain't nicotine.
Joseph
2 years 5 months