Hi,
Congratulations with your almost 2 months quit!
Also congratulations with the stage you are in: The depression stage. I cannot find the link here but you have to go 5 stages while quiting. Depression is the last stage.So you're almost there.
I also am almost 2 months free now and I know exactly what you mean.
I also think 24 hours a day about smoking. I also get tired of it.
You cannot force it to go away. The more you think about how you think about smoking the more you think about smoking. I even think it's not thinking about smoking but thinking about your quit.
Don't think about a yellow monkey sitting on your head. See you think of it.
The monkey will not go away. You think it again now!
Now you think again about the yellow monkey and you didn't think about smoking!
But I also think that it will go away. I don't think all the silver/gold/double gold etc. people here are liars when they say they don't think for weeks anymore about smoking.
I believe them. Also the NTAP is really hammered in my head. Whatever happens how much I will think of smoking or quiting or whatever I will never ever take that puff. Tomorrow it will be better. If not tomorrow next week but today I will not smoke.
I put up a string for you: 3 years vs. 3 days which is contstant in my mind.
Please read it and cu on deck.
Oh in case you decided to start smoking again please read this first:
Frits (almost double green)