THANK YOU ALL for your words of wisdom and encouragement! You all helped a lot - mostly knowing that I'm not alone and that there ARE others out there who are succeeding even if their spouse hasn't quite yet committed to the effort.
I AM proud of myself - I did NOT relapse out of anger or spite, which has been a trigger for me in past quits. Hard as it was, it DID make me realize how I have to really keep working on what I do with my angry feelings. It's true, though, he did not betray me and his path is for him to walk and mine is mine. Thankfully, he did not use his relapse as an excuse to throw in the towel - he tossed the cigs and today is his Day One again. I'll pray that he can just make it through the withdrawal experience & get it over with already!
Thank you all again - you were vital to the fact that I can say today that I am 11 Days Nicotine -Free and STILL plan on NTAP, despite the many challenges that that may bring in the weeks/months to come!
Heidi