hey Ginger
When I read this post I thought that could be me writing that.
I too have this picture of myself in my head of who I was as a smoker and cant seem to shake it. If you read my Journal you can see that I have been fighting and crying with this aspect of the quit probably since I started.
I have needed to change everything about how I see myself and the way that I deal with things emotionally.
It has been a bumpy ride. Much bumpier than the physical addiction.
I have spoken to heaps of oldies about it and one of the best things that I did for myself was read some jounals from the oldbies from their first day.
Go on to their post and click back to their First post and read through.
It will give you an insight as to how things change as their quit progresses and how they too have had to deal with tears, anger, grief, frustration etc.
Amazing to see that as long as they NTAP every one of them get through it.
I have identified with so many of them that I have read so it isnt just you and me that feel this way.
Everybodies quit is different but there are enough similarities that reading these older posts really helps.
Stick with us Ginger
Hey I am nearly Green.
Whoo hoo
Deborah
Free and healing for 28 days