Wow!
Talk about a puppet. That's exactly how I felt prior tomy quit. It was to the point that I enjoyed smoking. I didn't want to quit. But I knew I had to cut the strings. They were destroying my life and I knew it. Every Doctor's visit, did you quit yet? You'll feel better if you do. I attempted a couple of times on my own but it never lasted very long. But when I found this board and seen that there were others who could relate and willing to encourage each other I decided to take a risk to quit again and put my fears of failure away. I'm so glad I did. The support has ben wonderful. I found myself getting strong every day. And the desirer to not want to stop changed. I felt so much better not smoking that I didn't want to return to that old nasty, smelly habit, and the cost kept me poor. It was difficult to go without a killerette the first couple of days. But when I finally decided that I no longer wanted them the strings were cut. Instead of being a whimp I took on the characterists of a warrior. I would fight no matter what. Even helped fight for others. Nicotine is defeated.

Deb
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