Take your time, Eve
Having a drink is not a life-or-death issue, unless you're an alcoholic which clearly you aren't. So what's the big deal? Don't drink. Yet.
One day when your mind is telling you that your quit is strong enough, have one drink. If that feels OK, then stop worrying about it. If it starts to make you feel uneasy, lay off the drink for another couple of weeks, then try again.
Eve, you don't have a drinking deadline to meet. If you don't have a drink in the next two months, say, your world will not come crashing in. If you relapse, your world will come crashing in. We can do as non-smokers everything we used to do as smokers, (except take that one puff), but we don't have to do them all today image
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NOT A PUFF FOR 8 months 2 weeks 3 days : 4664 cigs not smoked : 2 weeks 2 days 4 hours added to my life