Hello everyone. Thanks to all of you at Freedom, and Whyquit. Without you I would be chasing the nicodemon with NRT. But, never quite catching it. I am 5 days plus of freedom from nicotine as I write this. My commitment is to never take another puff made one day at a time if I have to and make that commitment first thing each day.
The addiction I have is more than 45 years and I am 62 years old at this writing. I started smoking when it was cool thing to do as a teenager and never really stopped. I guess I just ignored the obvious dangers of smoking that all of us have been bombarded with over the past 25-30 years. I was so afraid to go to a doctor's office that I have not seen one for the past 10 years because of the fear of finding something wrong. Obviously, if they found something wrong then I would not be able to keep my best friend - tobacco. Pretty stupid, huh? Well, after 6 months of feeling crummy I finally went. Surprise, something was wrong. Nothing terribly serious at this point, so I am so very thankful for that. However, enough to get me here.
My biggest fears involve triggers. Places and things that use to involve cigarettes seem to have the same pull today. So far, I have been able to withstand them. But only by telling myself that my body doesn't need the nicotine, it is only my brain that is trained to want one under that particular circumstance. In other words, I have some very stern talks with myself 4 or 5 times a day when the triggers occur.
One particularly important trigger is alcohol. I always smoked with booze. Yes, I know the connection between the addiction and alcohol but mine seems more intense. I have chosen to eliminate alcohol for fear that this is a trigger that I can not handle right at the moment. Or, frankly, if smoking is not healthy, alcohol is not either so I may stop drinking alcohol altogether. Just have not made up my mind on that yet.
Thanks for reading. It really feels good to go to bed at night telling myself I made it another day. Each morning I wake breathing and feeling better but so far I have not failed to make that daily commitment of remaining nicotine free that day.
Roger - Free and Healing for Five Days, 15 Hours and 56 Minutes, while extending my life expectancy 14 Hours, by avoiding the use of 170 cigarettes that would have cost me $28.81.