I'm a little bored today and that's a dangerous thing for me, cause it gets me thinking. Never was much good at that and it shows. Things are a little slow on the board today, no big emergencies, no one about to lose a quit, (I hope) and it comes to mind that we really don't share our boring days here like we should.
There are other threads that encourage sharing of the good days as well as the bad, but most of us just don't do it. Well, I'm having a good day, at least as far as my addiction goes. It bothers me not one little bit to sit here and think about cigarettes and nicotine and my addiction. It's a non-event, I can think about it, talk about it, write about it and have absolutely no desire to light one.
I remember when I was smoking and wanting to quit, but it just seemed like a lot of trouble. I knew I needed to, I wanted to, but I put it off because it seemed like a lot of trouble to quit. Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week, maybe on my daughter's birthday, maybe, maybe, maybe. Inertia always kept me smoking. I was afraid to quit, afraid of the unknown. I wish I'd never started, but I don't want to quit--that type thinking.
Now it's the reverse, well, kinda. On the rare occasions when I do encounter a trigger it flashes across my mind to just give it up, go smoke, get it over with, etc. Be aware that's just a random thought, very fleeting and something I can't help. Nothing to worry about. Point is, when that happens, I'll go thru the usual drill. "Sure, you want ONE, but do you want twenty," etc. My answer to all that now is, "Nah, it's just too much trouble. One might be okay, but the rest of them--just too much trouble." Inertia has begun to take over and it's just easier NOT to smoke.
I await the days that the gold members talk about where the whole issue is a non-event and I don't even think of my addiction at all, but I wait patiently. Until then, I am quite comfortable being too lazy to lose a quit. It's just too much trouble.
Like I said at the beginning, it's a slow day, but a good day. For those of you in Day One or Week One when every minute is a challenge, hear me--I'm only four months into a quit. Relief is not that far away.
And today is a good day.
I don't smoke and I don't chew and I don't go with the girls that do. 3 Months 4 Weeks 11 Hours 49 Minutes 39 Seconds. Cigarettes not smoked: 4182. Money saved: $575.06.
PS: I couldn't decide between titles, so I just used both of them. Too lazy to choose.