Many emotions prevail when quitting smoking....especially the first month or so.
Many of you have asked about anger and many of you have shed more than your share of tears. Some of you laugh while others, sit in fear and yet others are suffering pain. I have seen these emotions come in batches over a period of almost nine months since I quit.... One person speaks out and other voices join in. Again, this is what a message board is for. None of us should sit alone and feel bad when spilling our hearts out can do so much good.
These emotions are normal at the beginning of a quit and will last for some of us a couple of months. We all must remember that we are addicts, and for those of us still in the early stages of our quits, our bodies are still struggling from the absence of nicotine. Some of us have smoked for decades, others here, are lucky and wise enough to call it quits after a couple of years. All of our bodies, no matter how long we smoked were used to functioning with nicotine. Now, our bodies are learning to run the way they were meant to run....without the nicotine. There is not a system in our bodies that smoking has not invaded and even though we are nicotine free in a few days....it will take longer for our bodies to heal......and healing they are.
I have seen the anger and the tears and have heard the laughter too. I am always sorta grumpy so maybe I was a bit grumpier at the beginning....well at least I tried to be...many thought I was just funny....especially at work. Made me even grumpier. Many of you shed tears at the drop of a hat and some of you claim anger.....but I could do neither. For me....and for some others here, according to some new posts I am reading....fear prevailed. When my husband and I began our quits we knew that some pretty serious surgery was scheduled for the 21st day of our quit...my older daughters 32 birthday. The only thing we could focus on was the impending surgery so fear was basically the emotion I had to deal with....fear of the unknown....fear of what would happen should the surgery go awry. Well, the surgery was a success.....all 3 aneurysms my husband had were successfully repaired....smoking had caused them and now we could hope that our smoking had done no further damage. After the surgery there was recovery and joy. So I did not experience the anger and tears because the fears occupied my mind....then pure joy.
Soon all of you experiencing the mood swings....the hi's and low's will find yourselves starting to mellow out. Your bodies' healing will have progressed more and you will have learned that you can live both mentally and physically without cigarettes. Your days will start flying by once again, your lives will take shape without thoughts of smoking and the anger, the fear, and the tears will become history.
I find since I quit smoking that I smile more, feel better about myself and walk out in public taller, prouder and thrilled that I finally got the monkey off my back.......and I know, that all of you experiencing unhappy feelings.....the anger and the fears and the tears, will, just like me, and all the others before you, walk taller and be prouder and be happier too.
a big hug to each and every one of you and best wishes for a happy, healthy, smokefree life.