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Feb 19 09 9:09 PM
For us, as has been said here before, ONE EQUALS ALL.
A great read is The One Puff Files but I've not settled in here,,,, and don't know where it is.
But you are doing great, and its the education that will make this quit different.
YQB BillW Seven years, one week, four days. 77053 cigarettes not smoked, saving $15,218.15. Life saved: 38 weeks, 1 day, 13 hours, 5 minutes.
Feb 19 09 10:58 PM
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Feb 25 09 11:16 PM
Some days are diamonds....
Some days are really tough. Today was one of those days where my addiction was all over me and I kept thinking that I wanted to smoke (I really do not want to
smoke--my addiction wants me to smoke and I think it willl employ nearly any trick to try to make me do it). All day I wrestled with it--it was a stressful
day, I've been really tired this week and there's just a lot going on--so it's like when I'm at a slightly weak state like that, my addiction
jumps up looking for an opportunity. I really hate days like this, but I never want to forget that these days exist and that this struggle is sometimes very,
Because I know that it will get better (know it know it know it), I want to record the bad so I can remember it. I re-read one of Joel's articles about
this, and I want to have my own struggles on record for use later when I'm feeling more complacent.
I also want to tell about something new I thought of last night.
It'll either land me in the Freedom Hall of Fame (if there is such a thing) or in the nearest Funny Farm....whichever, it's helping me right now.
So during these tough times, I am thinking more about taking care of myself. It may not sound like rocket science, but this is hard for a lot of women to
do--you women out there know what I mean--we really are programmed to take care of others first, so it can be very hard to think of ourselves and do things
solely for our own benefit. We learn early on that doing things just for us is to be "selfish" and "inconsiderate"--surely, a good girl
does good things for everyone else first, and then if she ever runs out of things to do for someone else, she might find time for herself; but really, who ever
runs out of things to do for people? Good girls certainly don't.
Maybe some of us started smoking as some ill-fated, mis-wired attempt at defiant rebellion (cigarette ads in the old days used to use this notion as an
advertising appeal), but whatever the reason, once we realized how bad it was and knew that quitting was good for us, we just could never find the motivation
within to really do it. We could quit for husbands, children, parents, etc. but never for ourselves. And as we've learned here from Joel--we have to quit
for ourselves and no one else, and that is the absolute truth.
So, I accidentally I found a way to make this a little easier, at least for me. Maybe you'll relate (or maybe you'll think I'm nuts!) Anyway, here
it is: Last night, I pulled out an old photo album for a totally differnet reason, and I saw these photos of myself as a little kid, all cute and fresh and
innocent like we all are when we're kids---and it dawned on me that I was looking at the "never smoker" me, Little Amanda.
Little Amanda's lungs weren't spoiled and she didn't have a smokers' cough. LIttle Amanda didn't reek of nicotine. It had never occured to
Little Amanda to go fishing in a trash can looking for an old half-smoked butt she'd thrown out the day before because she'd run out of smokes. Little
Amanda didn't know the pain of a tight chest, or the cloying, filthy, tarry taste of a cigarette when you have a cold and can barely breathe. Her windpipe
had never burned when she inhaled because she had never inhaled a bunch of deadly chemicals.
Little Amanda wasn't planning her every move around when she could get her next fix. She wasn't saying things like, "Mommy, can I go out and
smoke?" "Yeah, Robbie, I'll meet you on the playground. Is there a smoking section?" "Let's go play at Susie's house. Her
whole family smokes!"
Little Amanda had never smoked, and so I made her a few promises--that I would take good care of her lungs from now on, that I would do my best to see that she
gets enough sleep, enough healthful foods and exercise, and mostly, that she is never subjected to another puff of nicotine.
So, there. Now I'm in touch with my "inner never smoker!" And it's past her bedtime. She's tired!
I have been free for 4 Weeks, 1 Day and 36 minutes (29 days). I have saved $77.27 by not smoking 435 cigarettes. I have saved 3 Days, 7 hours and 45 minutes of
my life. My Quit Date: 1/27/2009 9:30 PM
Feb 26 09 12:18 AM
Yep some days are diamonds (precious and rare) and some are so tough, but we are lucky that each morning we wake up and we have a pulse and we are breathing,
can't get better than that.
It will get better, I am living proof of that, and I found your post wonderful to
read, oh! the innocence of youth..I also relate to doing for others before you do for yourself, I still do, I will not pay $100 for a pair of shoes, but hey
$120.00 for my grandaughter to have good fitting shoes - no worries and she is only 2 and will be out of them in 3 months.
When I was little you only had to say don't do something, and there I was
doing it, why can't you jump off the garage roof, get hurt nah! okay the broken arm only hurt for a day or so.....so of course taking up smoking, made me
very grown up and oh so cool.....I used to laugh at my older brother because he was a nerd, didn't smoke, got married at 20 - how much fun could he be
having.. I was the cool one.........Oh! how he must of envied me (not). Now I realize he was the cool one, and I was the nerd - crushing I know, but hey, thats
Have a good sleep,you are doing awesome, just keep learning and just NTAP see you soon at your greening, Oh - you know you have to supply the cake right?
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Feb 28 09 6:04 AM
Oooopppps I guess I am early - funny the invitation said 27th Feb was the One month celebration , okay standing around now and the caterer is looking at me
funny, mind you this food is rather yummy - door opening "hello more people arriving" see I wasn't wrong
AMANDA IS GREEN
How absolutely awesome is that
Feb 28 09 12:39 PM
Feb 28 09 8:23 PM
I am GREEN! Yay! I'm thrilled and a little bit surprised, but totally going with it. The last two days have been really
oustanding--I don't think I had a crave on Green Day or the day before. If I did, I don't remember them. Today, I've had a few, but they've
been manageable. I guess all of them over the last month have been manageable or I wouldn't be here right now.
I wanted to share another little item that only you fellow Freedom former smokers would understand:
I joined a weight loss group a few weeks back. I've lost about 20 or so pounds in the past six months, and didn't want to gain any back when I quit, so
I joined up (and have dropped two pounds this month). It's a very well-known group--you've heard of it! No need to mention a brand name here, but
it's the group where you meet and weigh in once a week, and when you have any kind of success at all, they all applaud. When you share something or have a
nice little milestone, they give you these little stickers shaped like stars, and they say "bravo" on them. I know it sounds silly, but as you all
know, the encouragement of your peers is very nice and helpful.
Anyway, I went there the day before Green Day, when my quit was at 30 days. The group leader knew I'd quit smoking and asked me in front of the group how
my quit was going. I told her it was 30 days that day, and the room went wild. They all applauded and hooted so much you'd have thought I told them I'd
give them all a million dollars. Then, the group leader did something really cool--she picked up her little box of bravo stickers and counted out 30 of them.
She handed them to me, and when I looked at them, I noticed they were
I nearly burst in to tears! But of course, I couldn't really explain it to anyone there very well. I just told them that the
stickers meant a great deal to me. You guys know why!
On my Green Day, I wore a green sweater to work and I went out that evening and had a green drink! :)
Thanks for the support, everyone. Suzie, Doc, Marty, Joel, Freedom Managers and Fellow Quitters--you're all Emeralds in my eyes!
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Congratulations on Green Amanda. Perhaps the toughest of all the Freedom milestones.
And thanks for the super post. Yes, quitting nicotine in all shapes and forms is such a liberating experience on so many levels isn't it? The more time you
put between your "here and now" and your last puff, the more liberated you will feel and you will find that as you make further progress, this gift
will just keep on giving. And the more liberated you feel, the more you will see what a gigantic lie we were all living as feeding addicts.
No more though. Now we stand free of the bondage.
Keep up the good work !
Robin - 2 years 9 months
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