Hi, that old joke 'Quitting is just so easy - I've quit a hundred times already' is just so true for me. The problem isn't quitting itself, I've done it often enough in my 25 years of smoking, the quits lasting from a day to 3.5 years.
But - I've always relapsed.
However, there will not be another relapse this time.
I am determined to keep recovering.
I am off nicotine for 18 days now and don't find it all too difficult - one of the worst use cues I actually tackled right at the start when I decided on a weekend away with the (smoking) girls, to just not have that after-dinner cigarette with them. When we went out partying that night, no cigarettes for me. I didn't find it difficult at all, although I was drinking alcohol. I even gave them my last cigarettes that I had with me. Suddenly some awareness or consciousness was with me and I noticed how they were smoking along (we were in a place were you're allowed to smoke indoors), lighting one after the other. Anyway, I got through the weekend without much craves and have been doing fine since.
Last night however, I had a nicotine use dream. It was the strangest thing, I was dreaming that I was smoking and I did remember that I had actually quit, but couldn't remember whether that meant that I can't smoke at all or only that I shouldn't buy my own pack. Very odd. This morning was the first morning since I quit that I woke up from the alarm ringing - all 17 days before I woke up on my own, no matter at what time I had set the alarm, I always woke up about half an hour before feeling very refreshed and energetic. This morning was different, I actually felt like I had smoked even though it was only in my dream.
Quit Date: 1st May 2010