Hello everyone - I feel depressed.
I slept well last night, it's a pleasant sunny day, I feel physically well and alert, my family are all well.
So what's the problem? I'm not sure, but it may be that I'm waiting to get the results of last weeks' chest X-rays (altho I'm not conscious that it's preying on my mind). It may be that there seem to have been a lot of threads here in the last couple of weeks from our family members who are depressed (is that contagious, over the web ???)
I really don't know why I feel down. But I can tell you that that it's not having the remotest effect on my quit. It doesn't make me want to smoke, it's not even creating the slightest craving or urge. I am sitting here trying to conjure up the image of an AAAAHHH cigarette, and I just CAN'T DO IT. It seems ridiculous, but I can't even KID myself that there is any connection between feeling depressed and smoking.
In a lot of recent "depression" posts, people seem to accept that there is some automatic connection between feeling depressed and triggering relapse. Now I know that my depression is nothing at all like clinical depression, and I know that everyone reacts differently to these feelings. I just want to suggest that this is not a night-follows-day relationship. There is no logical reason why feeling depressed should make us think we want a cigarette, and actually I can't think of an emotional reason. Maybe one of the reasons that depression becomes a trigger is simply that we have allowed ourselves to become convinced that there is a relationship, and therefore we expect it, so it happens.
My message, especially to newbies, is that this need not happen to everyone. We will all have our 'blue' days in our futures, but this does not mean that every one will be a trigger to be fought, that depression is something to be feared as a cause of relapse. For some of us, the 'blue' days will just be what (perhaps) they are meant to be - the days that remind us how good the other days can be.
NOT A PUFF FOR 4 months 4 weeks 2 days : 2413 cigs not smoked : 1 week 1 day 9 hours added to my life.