So this week I have had to retrain my brain that it is possible to learn and study without smoking.
In the past when I would have to study I would go to a coffee shop and sit outside, on the patio, studying and smoking for hours. Right or wrong, this system really worked for me.
A job that I am interested in required me to take a test. I had two days to memorize 86 pages of court law information. This is pretty dry information that would make my eyes begin to glaze over after an hour of reading.
I found that I was really missing the action of smoking and the reaction of the nicotine stimulating my learning center diodes in my brain. I am sure what I have just written is bunk, but it was how I felt. Luckily I didn't have any kind of physical withdrawals. This was all mental.
I didn't smoke. I wasn't tempted to go bum one. I acknowledged that I really really wanted one but then I would be a full time addict again. .
When I really try to reason out why this was so tough for me I guess I would have to say that when I studied in the past I would smoke alot. More than usual. And so maybe what my mind is struggling against is the old pattern of nicotine withdrawal and the additional nicotine reinforcement when studying was involved.
It was very tough but I just didn't take another puff. As dry as the information was, I still was capable of stuffing a good portion of it into to mind without the aid of nicotine. The best was when I went in to take my test, I didn't have to worry about if I smelled smoky or when I would be done so I could get a fix in. That was a really nice reward after a tough couple of days of conciously reprogramming my mind that nicotine is not necessary in my world. I don't need it.
Tracy - Free and Healing for One Month, Nineteen Days, 11 Hours and 20 Minutes.
It isn't always easy, but it is always simple.
Never take another puff or dip!