Okay, here I am in day 12, and I'm beginning to feel like myself again. I had some real irritation/frustration issues the first week; which I suppose I had even before I quit smoking, especially at work. I'm a finance manager for a motorcycle/watercraft/atv dealership. But the last few days (10, 11, and then today) I noticed that instead of being able to control my irritation with someone; I'll just IMMEDIATELY blow up and start being hostile. A co-worker came in today with a caustic/sarcastic remark, and I just pointed my finger at her and said, "I will NOT be belittled by YOU,... etc etc (insert wrong thing to say here)." When she attempted to apologize, I completely shut her down and asked her to leave my office. Of course I apologized; but I realize that I've been doing that to my roomate and my boyfriend, to a smaller degree. (my roomate and my boyfriend, smokers both, have been more supportive, god bless them) If I'm put on the defensive, I ATTACK. I am wondering if anyone else is doing this or has gone thru it, and if so, is there any trick that helps?
I've done some reading onsite and I know that I now don't have that cigarette to put between me and my irritability; but it's almost like I have a pin that someone pulls and before I can stop it, I'm shrapnel. :-/ Or eveyone around me is. ::sigh::
Thanks in advance all.