Of a meltdown here! I'm so frustrated with my kids, with my husband, with my apartment, with our money situation, Arggggg! I can't stand this.... for the past week I've been going through these frustrating times in each day where I don't know when to end it... I'm at the end of my rope and a smoke sounds like such a GREAT idea. Then I come across something that makes me not want one, but a couple hours later I'm desperate for a smoke and I'm back in this same situation. I am so frustrated right now........................... I just want a smoke because if my hubby can keep on smoking, then why can't I? and besides that I'm at home with the kids everyday all day - I am at the end of my ropes... I have these fleeting thoughts of well, I can stop again later in my life... my routine is all off track and I'm so mad. I don't want to smell like a cigarette, or have to keep buying them... i just WANT them sooo bad... so badly that I can't even stand it. Like I'm crawling out of my skin.