Hi...I just wrote this in my diary as I didn't want to do an SOS really (though I feel I need it right now, I didn't want to be considered attention seeking or anythign since I just joined YESTERDAY!) but I lost it when I tried to post and I couldn't be bothered to type it all again in case I lost it again..and then no one saw it for awhile.
Anyway...my husband and I bicker sometimes, but we don't oftne have big blowouts or anything..well, we just had a *major* one. To make things worse, my son is usually never around when we do have a big fight, and he was this time. He's 13, and it scared him. I feel bad about that. Mostly, I want a cigarette. I know it won't improve the situation in the least, but it's what I've always done. If something like this happens, I chain smoke..one, the next, the next, the next until I end up going out and buying another pack. I am having a REALLY really hard time here. All I want to do is go out and get a pack. Thank goodness, I don't have one on hand, and my husband rolls his own. Since we're not speaking, I'm not about to ask him to do me one. (not saying I would anyway, but less temptation) I'm still really upset about the fight and all I can think about is a smoke right now. Please help if you can. Thanks, Michelle : (