But I am winning!
Stopping smoking really changed a lot of my perceptions. When I stopped on Dec. 5th, I told myself to eat whatever I wanted, as long as I didn't smoke. Well, that did work for me up until the point that I stood on the scale at the beginning of February and found that I had gained over 15 pounds! I have since begun a very sensible eating program through a center and have also begun to exercise again. I have already lost the 15 pounds I gained since December and am looking forward to losing the additional (many) pounds that I gained from years of inactivity. (Actually, I used to exercise like a fool, but the 20-something years of smoking really began to take their toll the past few years. I would make up all kinds of excuses why I couldn't exercise though I had been active for most of my life. Truth is, I couldn't breathe!)
I really love the difference in my breathing when I exercise now. It is so great to be able to take nice deep breaths! After smoking for about 3/4 of my life (frightening thought...) I had no idea what I had been missing!
Stopping smoking has caused me to be able to set and actually REACH goals again. Something I truly hadn't done in ages. I am able to see how things do not need to get "better" overnight, but that they will get a little better each day, and that adds up to huge differences over time!
On a slightly different note, I have just found out that my uncle (only 48 years old) has just been diagnosed with stage III lung cancer. I was told that he said, "I'm going to beat this thing..." as his sister heard him exhaling smoke over the phone. I thank God that I win this battle against addiction every day I choose NTAP. I will tell him about this site, and may he find the freedom that we all have.
Free for Two months, three weeks, 18 hours, 44 minutes and 36 seconds. (Almost BRONZE!)