Temptation rears it's ugly head...
This past Saturday I was with my Father-in-Law, doing some side work for extra cash and found myself in an interesting predicament. Sitting in the workshop between jobs he chain-smoked and drank coffee while I just drank coffee. Getting up he told me that he had to use the restroom and would be right back. No problem.
He left his cigarettes and lighter laying there on the desk.
I knew that no one was watching and I could steal a smoke with out him knowing (or caring - I used to bum off him all the time). Nobody else would know. It was a perfect opportunity.
I just stood there looking at the open pack.
I've been smoke free for over four months. Did I want a cigarette? Well, no. Was I craving? Nope. I envisioned the dizzy sick headache that was waiting for me after the first puff. I remembered what I read here and used some common sense. I DO NOT wish to start smoking again and that is exactly what will happen if I do this. That first cigarette will NOT taste like I remember - I've had nicotine out of my system for too long. It will only make me dizzy and nauseous.
...and I will have to live with myself knowing that I cheated. (Relapsed)
Nah. Not worth it.
It was good to know that presented with the opportunity I was able to think it through and make the intelligent decision.
I don't know about anybody else...but that was a HUGE step in my recovery.
Saturday was a good day.