After being addicted after 19.5 years, finally it feels like I am getting rid off it. Of course I tried several times and actually for the last year I am continiously in the quit mode. I stop one day, say "just 1" next day and relapse, every single day of the year was like that. It's been really exhausting. I decided to stop because of the person I became. Nicotine changed my personality. I became very irritable, angry all the time. And last year was full of more anger than ever. So I (finally) realized either I should stop or go on but make a decission. So I decided to stop for real at the end. After being quit for 10 days, I am still irritable but it looks like it is diminishing.
This forum is irreplaceable. The amount of information it contains and the way it was buit is excellent in my opinion. I thank with my whole heart to all the people who have contributed.
Although it is mentioned in great detail around the forum's resource, I'd like to share what I learned during my last year, hoping it would help others:
. NTAP is the key, never say "just one". It costed me a year. Not only me of course, everyone around me really had hard time.
. Do not concentrate on the rest of your life. Focus on the next minute and next hour.
. Do not watch the clock and count seconds. This makes smoking very very precious and you become obsessed with it and relapse becomes inevitable.
. Think about your own triggers and get prepared to react without nicotine.
. Withdrawal symptoms are actually that unbearable. Get prepared, focus on something else and stop listening yourself.
Proud to be free of nicotine for 10.5 days and already avoided 157 sticks.