My name is Jenni and I am a nicotine addict. I have stopped nicotine for 5 days, 2 hours, 19 minutes and 39 seconds. I've not smoked 102 death sticks, and saved $23.71. I 've saved 8 hours and 29 minutes of my life.
I started smoking when I was about 12-13. I do remember I was in 7th grade and my whole group of friends started smoking about the same time. I started with just a couple a day but by High School I was up to a pack a day of menthols. I would buy the 100's because I figured if I was going to pay so much I was going to get my money's worth. I look back now and wonder what the heck was I thinking.
I have tried many times to quit smoking. It is horrible to even admit this now but I had 3 children and couldn't even give up smoking while I was pregnant with them. I made such a big deal about how I cut back but I just couldn't quit. OK for that one I so deserve the bad mom award. For years my boys have begged and begged me to quit and I always had some lame excuse or another. The medicine the doctor gave me didn't work or I was allergic to the patch. Any lame excuse to keep smoking.
About 6 months ago I ran across the whyquit.com website. I read the rules and thought well Gee I thought this place would give me help and support without being so mean and cold hearted. I didn't think about it again until a couple of weeks ago when I realized that I had a cough for at least 6 weeks which just did not seem it was ever going away. I actually tried blaming in on the government because IL went smoke free in 2008 and if I didn't have to go out in the cold all the time to smoke I wouldn't be sick. So again, at first it wasn't my fault.
I come from a family of smokers my mom, my dad (at least he used to I haven't seen him in years so I can't say for sure) me, and both of my sisters smoke. We ALL married men who do not smoke (me both first and second hubby non-smokers). My mother has COPD and gets bronchitius on average every 3-4 weeks. Almost as soon as she gets to the doctor to get the antibiotic and heals it comes right back. After about 6 weeks of having my cough a large light bulb went off in my head. Hello, I am my mothers daughter and if I was not careful I was going to be just like her.
I had to figure out for myself if this was the life I wanted to lead and if this was the example I wanted for my boys who are now 15, 13, and 11. Not to mention the fact that hubby and I have been trying for baby #4. Almost instantly this site popped into my head so I went back to check it out. I downloaded the Never Take Another Puff book, I printed it and took it home. I stayed up late into the night reading this book. Some of the information scared me to death but I came away from reading this book for the first time in my life feeling as if there was hope. I went back to the site the next day and read everything I could find. On my 34 birthday Jan 8 I knew that enough was enough there are not excuses. So I quit. I threw out my cigs, my lighers, my matches, my big outdoor ashtray. All gone. I told no one of my decision until my birthday dinner celebration that night. I learned that very first day that I could drink without smoking being married to an Italian dinner and wine go together like Peanut butter and jelly. Being a birthday celebration our family drank 2 bottles of wine. I left the restaraunt feeling really well high on family, hope, and determination. I made it through that first 24 hours and I swear the light at the end of the tunnel was no longer just a pin prick but a ray of hope.
I am now at 5 days and counting. I have to admit the first 3 days were very very hard but I embraced and worked through each craving until it was gone. I did not run from the things that I did as a smoker. I still have my glass of wine with dinner, I still see and talk to my friends and family who are smokers. Already I have noticed changes. I rarely get cravings the last few days. Yesterday I only have one craving and it lasted maybe 25 seconds. By the time I finished saying the Serentiy prayer the craving was gone. The smell of cigarrette smoke nauseates me to the extreme. My sister came to visit on Saturday which was my 3rd day. She had gone outside to smoke when she came back in and was talking to me I truly could not stand the smell.
I do know this will not be easy I will have my moments but I truly have learned that with information I was able to understand that only but quitting cold turkey would I be able to get off of that carousel of life that was spinning out of control. I am healthier both physically and mentally and I know that as long as I NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF! I will survive.