After starting my nicotine addition at 16 years old and smoking for 8 years, I am proud to now call myself an ex-smoker of 2 weeks and 2 days. Reading theses messages boards has helped me such a lot, so firstly I'd like to say a big thank you to everyone!
After an unexpected conversation, I realised I had to quit smoking by myself and more importantly for myself. When I gave up I was lonely and felt the loss of a close friend. It seemed like I was grieving, but I didn't tell anyone because I thought I was being foolish. Reading information on the 'why quit' website has made me realise this is normal, nothing to be ashamed of and is part of a natural progression.
Unfortunately I haven't been sleeping well recently (possibly due to the quit?) and every night I dream about smoking again. I feel guilty in the mornings and worry I cannot trust myself. And even though my logical brain knows it's pointless to worry, I still find it hard to get rid of that overwhelming daunting feeling.
However, this week I've been enjoying the process of regaining my sense of smell and taste. I have also looked forward to meeting up with old friends and waiting to see if they notice I've stopped smoking. I am at the begining of a beautiful healing and re-educating process. If you are reading this and have not yet started you healing process I urge you to, it's incredibly rewarding.
Thank you kindly for reading my first post. Ingrid.
Ex-smoker for 16 days 05 hours 25 minutes, 162 cigarettes not smoked, saving £18.90.